it's a brand new day

I'm a buuuuuuuunny! RUN AWAYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

... I'm not BORED or anything. Gosh.

Also.. me kissing KRASINSKI! ( You know you want to see it. )

You know what? I just realized I think I have too many celebrity crushes. Is that even possible? Oh god. Okay, LIIIST! :)

Celebrities I'll Never Meet But Will Totally Fall In Love With Me One Day, I Swear.

-Blake Lewis!
-Chris Richardson
-John Krasinski
-JOSH GROBAN! (He's my husband, I swear.)
-Ben Afleck
-Prince William (technically, royalty, not celebrity.)
-David Boreanaz
-Shia LeBeouf
-Dead Phil (Um, yeah. Totally. He's so dorky! I've been watching all these interviews with him and Chris... yeah. I don't care if he's MARRIED! Oh my gosh, and my DREAM!?! I think I'm seriously psychic on some level. He's not even that attractive. Hmmm.)
-T. R. Knight (I don't care if he's gay.)


There were a lot more, I thought. OH WELL.




Grey's KILLED ME! Izzy! Giiiiiirl, I feel ya. That would beyond suck. I would totally love George too though. But eeek, Callie so knew. I love how Meridith did too and tried to cover. Oh, friends. I miss mine. :(


And I think pretty much live at Title Wave now. Which is cool. But you know, NOT, because they wouldn't even hire me! Don't call back much? Give a girl a chance! :)

I hate not having the internet.

I'm addicted! It's so bad. And now that I don't have it? I NEED IT EVEN MORE. I mean, come on. There's so many freaking Chris interviews and Cake news that I need to be updated on HOURLY! :)


Okay, dang. I hate filling out job applications. I did SIX today. SIX! I better get a fucking job. UGH.

American Idol. I'll just say all of this really quickly. OMGBLAKE! Skunk hair? Honey. Oh, honey. Needless to say, he can rock it like nothing else. The Blake-hatin' was so not cool! I felt very disdainful. It was terrible! He rocked the disco. And I don't even like disco. Remotely! .. And the absence of Chris and Dead Phil was felt. SO MUCH. Tuesday's show was lame without them. Also, what was up with them showing Haley in the audience for like 3 seconds and then not talking to her? RYAN! Get with the program! They talked to Gina last week! She was so snubbed, it's not even funny. Whatever. When the showed the top 10 recap for the tour thingy I SQUEED! I didn't realize how much I missed everyone! Chris Sligh? Haley? CRICH AND DEADPHIL! Even freaking Sanjaya and Gina! Who I love to hate. Oh, Sanjaya and Gina. The hatred. GOSH. I want to go see the tour SO BAD! Hannah, if you go, you HAVE HAVE HAVE to take a video or something. And have a sign that says "JAYDER LOVES CAKE!" or something. Because, hello, I so do. More than anything!

So basically, next week is going to rock, because HELLO 3 SONGS! And homecoming stuff! :) Who else wants a Blake/Jordin finale? Good. haha


.. I can't watch Grey's Anatomy tonight! God, my life sucks! I'll just have to watch it online at the internet cafe tomorrow. haha I'm sad. BUT GEORGE!!! I love George! And I still don't know how I feel about that whole situation. I mean, I love Callie. She's so adorable and totally kick ass. But Izzy! I love Izzy! And George/Izzy (Gizzy? DIRRRRTY!) is so freaking heartbreaking. Siiiigh.


Now I must go drop off my job apps, and go back to my mom's boring and incredibly small apartment. I have nothing to look forward to tonight. So sad. Oh. I did download some Chris interviews that I haven't watched yet so I can watch them tonight. .. I know, I'm pathetic. I DON'T CARE!

Seriously, how is Clinton Kelly so freaking amazing?

He's in a farmer/cowboy/hick outfit in Antarctica, and he's fabulous! There's penguins!

.. This was totally brought on by a couple hours of What Not To Wear watching earlier tonight. Clinton just cracks me up man! He's so funny! And so totally gay. But he reminds me of one of my best guy friends, who I'm so missing right now! (He's not gay.. my friend.) Clinton is him, except magnified and zoomed in like a hundred times. And their names both start with C! And they look exactly alike!

Oh man, I seriously need a gaybestfriend.

I'm so jealous of Stacy London.

(Because you just know they're really bffs outside the show.)

Siiiiiiiiiiiigh.

So I don't even know what to say about last night. My baby is gone! :(

I'm still kind of an emotional wreck over the whole thing, but I have to admit that it was probably the best way he could've left. Cake at the end was the cutest! The crying together, oh God, break my heart already!.

And even Dead Phil! I love Dead Phil! He sang amazing last night, didn't he?

Okay, and the WEIRDEST THING? I totally had a dream on TUESDAY night that Chris and Phil were going to be eliminated. Like that wasn't creepy enough, part of my dream was also that the results show had a "halloween" feel to it. Like, Dead Phil was all vampired out, and Jordin was this crazy Vampiress with her crazy hair, and Lakisha was all scary too. And then THE FORD COMMERCIAL!? Totally like my dream! Freaked me the hell out. I think I'm all prophetic about American Idol. It's scary.

Of course, last night I had a dream where I was in love with Dead Phil. And he totally rejected me! He was all like, 'No! I love my wife!'. Which I guess is a good thing. So unless I meet Phil and ... all the sudden become wildly obsessed with him, I think my dream was just a one shot thing.

But totally creepy, right?

Oh, not only that, but yesterday at around 4:30-5:00 (my time, which was when the show was being filmed I believe), I was all upset for no reason! I mean, there was some stuff going on between one of my friends and I that made me upset, but I got REALLY REALLY upset! It definitely wasn't just because of what she did. I was literally crying. And I didn't know what was wrong with me. And it was totally that Chris was being kicked off! ... I'm a little weirded out by all of this.

But anyway, I still love Chris! RICH BITCH FOR LIFE! :) It's just that I'm not going to be able to see him every week now! Which blows so hard!

BLAKE LEWIS OFFICIALLY KILLED ME DEAD.

...


How fucking AMAZING was he tonight? Dauuuuumn. Best performance this season, by far! One of the best on the show EVER!

And Chris?

CAKE IS SO TALENTED!


Seriously, those are two of my favorite Bon Jovi songs and I couldn't be happier with the song choices from the boys.


So I heard about the Black Blake-ness before the show, and I was kinda freaking out a little bit. I love his blondeness! He's so adorable! But I gotta say, by the end of that performance I was loving the black. He can definitely rock it. I think he could pretty much do anything and it'd be awesome. And his outfit was also very kick ass. Oh, Blaaake.


CHRIS CANNOT LEAVE! I WILL DIE.

( the eighty most important things you'll ever read. )

That was exciting.


Oh my GOOOOSH, American Idol tomorrow. How exciting. Also, math final. So not so much. Boohumha! I need to study. Oh God.

I can't fail!!

So that new stalkeratzi video of Chris and Blake got me thinking. The poparatzi are so out of control! Yeah, we all knew that, I mean, hello, poor Britney Spears! I just feel so bad for them! That's just too crazy. If I was going out, and I had all these flashes and video cameras all up in my face, I'd be a little freaked out. Why is America so obsessed with famous people? I get that I am too, but I think if I actually saw a famous person, I would know to respect them. They're a human being just like everyone else.

And yeah, they're famous or whatever, but I don't think they asked for THAT! Or maybe they did and they like it, and I'm just being weird or whatever.

I think I'd be that one girl in the background that you can hear saying "Leave them the fuck alone!" haha

All though, I would really want a picture with them! HELLO! How freaking sweet would that be. You know that'd be my myspace/facebook display picture FOREVER!


I guess it's a good thing that I'm so far away from Hollywood, so that kind of thing will never happen to me.

Except when I met Wayne Brady and Jared, the subway man!

Trying to do new stuff in photoshop. Messed around for a while, and ended up with a lovely picture for my userinfo.




UH-HUH!

HAHAHAHA!

I win at life.

I just installed a Cake mood theme!

That took AGES!

haha

But I love it! :)

Finals, finals, finalssssss!

I swear, I WILL study for math sometime today. Inverse matrices will KILL ME! GOSH. If I get a C, I'll be fine. I just need a C. That's what I keep telling myself. haha

.. Why does Cake have to be so freaking cute!? UGH. haha Not like that's a bad thing.


It's so nice out today, and I really wanted to go return one of my books, and get some money money, but they're not even doing textbook buybacks today!

LAME!

...

Math!!

American Idol tonight!

I'm so excited.

A few icons of my lovely boys.

-3 CAKE
-2 C.Rich
-1 Blake



( give it to me easy )

-17 misc Buffy icons

Teasers:


( it's all just a little bit of history repeating )

*sad face*

( you raise me up to more than i can be )

http://youtube.com/watch?v=MYTJooXcG6g

Hillarious.

I just bought three songs on iTunes.

I shouldn't have to pay for music! What has this world come to?

And now I feel bad. hahaha

OKAY. Dishes. Trash. Laundry. Philosophy. Justice. Nutcracker.

(Where has this weekend gone? Geeze.)

I don't really know where else to do this at, and I just know that I need to. I have to just write it all out.

( cue the depression. again. )

Wow, that wasn't extremely emo or anything.

.. I'm pathetic.